Love Marriage

As I as wellk my marriage vows in the House of God, my glittery purity wedding gown sparkling in the sun seemed equal a symbol of my bright future with the man of my dreams. I looked into his passionate persistent eyes, and realized that once again, I had succeeded, gotten what I wanted. No one had eer been able to come in my stylus ever, and at present that I was matrimonial to Jai, looked like no one could. Not yet my p arnts. My parents didnt even agnise Jai well. I do recall in the whole m some others instinct social function, scarce things were unalike in this case. All they knew was what they had heard from people, namely Jais ex-wife and her mother.And of course theyd be biased, after a broken engagement, who wouldnt? Jais ex wife kept making up stories ab let on how violent Jai got when he was inebriate, I didnt believe her, partly because I didnt want to, but some other part of me sub consciously filed these fables in my memory. Mom kept insisting that she had a bad sapiditying ab emerge him, If hes remaining her for you, what guarantee do you have that he wont leave you for slightly one else? notwithstanding it wasnt that way, my parents wouldnt understand. Jai needed a life partner. His wife couldnt be his companion. I was everything she wasnt.She was a slave, more like a machine who in effect(p) bounced off his ideas to him. Obviously hed be bored. I also thought that another reason was the fact that I wanted to marry by choice, and not have it arranged like her and Pa, and all the other kip downing couples in the world. Well, so what if Jai had fooled around in the past, or gotten into jail a a couple of(prenominal) judgment of convictions full for small time drug dealing? That didnt stag him a criminal, and it certainly didnt make me change my mind about his terrific temper. That was his past, and at the time, I was his present, and that was all that mattered.Things started shaping up just the way I knew they would, Jai was salve the exotic, tall, handsome man, with flashing eyes and a curt mind. Nothing had changed after marriage he still loved me with the similar passion tinged with possessiveness, and he still treated me with the same respect and high-handedness as a gentleman, I was grateful because that was something very uncommon in the society I lived in. We shared the same interest in everything religion, politics, and even video games. I was his companion, his equal partner, I was sure Jai would keep me intellectual all my life.Soon Jai got a job as an agent for a company, and it was a good job with a steady income, so I didnt mind the fact that he had to be in and out of town. Pa got us a nice apartment in a comradely neighborhood, till we could afford to catch up with our own rent. A a couple of(prenominal) months passel the line Jai had gone to Singapore for some business, and while he was aside, I discovered that I was pregnant. I was thrilled beyond measure, all my parents fears of me world unable to live a decent respectable life with a man like Jai were dismissed. My dreams were coming true I would soon be a respected wife and mother.I thought Id wait for Jai to return, and thus surprise him. But Jai returned a little earlier than expected, hearing of my gestation from a family friend in Singapore. The night he returned didnt turn out to be quite as I thought it would. He came topographic point drunk, and I was at my mothers family unit when he returned, and was livid to find me out of the house without his permission. That night, when I returned home, I found him on his rocking chair, a hold my return. The first thing he said to me struck me like a lightening bolt, I shouldve listened to them when they told me about you.Youre finally argueing your true colors arent you? I didnt hit the sack whom he meant by them, but I was ball over by the harshness and sharpness of his tone and could only manage to mumble a worn huh? Dont pretend Ther es no need to, I know you were with Philip, and I know what youve been doing the past few months while Ive been out of town, His breath reeked of alcohol, and his words were slurred, and tart with contempt, You think Im dumb huh? Huh? You think I havent noticed youre interest in him? And I know that youre carrying proof of that.. Philip was our young, vibrant contiguous-door neighbor.He was quite a good looking, charming boy and I had mentioned it to Jai a couple of times. I noticed that he didnt seem too pleased about it, but I had never in my wildest dreams imagined that he would ever suspect me of beingness unfaithful to him. Jai went on to call me a string of demeaning rigorous names, but my mind was blank. I was weak as it was, and the shock was too much for me to bear. He got up slowly and walked towards me, polish offping a few inches away from me, Where did you go? . I opened my mouth to speak, but my throat was parched, and no words could be formed.After what seemed like eternity I uttered Mas house. His eyes bore into me like needles, and short he struck me screaming LIAR If you arent hiding anything from me accordingly why are you so scared His eyes were bulging out of his sockets, and his breathing grew heavier, of a sudden he caught me by my hair and flung me onto the couch. As he slapped me repeatedly, I fought to drop dead my screams lest the neighbors heard he then caught hold of my long auburn tresses and dragged me onto the floor, then lift me and hit my doubtfulness against the wall again and again and again. His rabies was sated.I couldnt keep track of anything that happened after that, I just hark back excruciating pain in my head up, and then I went numb and blacked out. I woke up to find myself on my bed, Jai was by my side holding my hand, my head still spun, and it took me a while to recollect the events of the previous night. Jai sat with his head bowed. He whispered an apology to me, I was too weak to show any signs of acceptance, and then suddenly he started sobbing, I cant believe I did this to you. Im so sorry, I mustve been possessed by an evil spirit. Please forgive me. I love you. I beg for forgiveness.That wasnt me. I promise to never raise my hand on you again. Im sorry Jyoti, please forgive me. I was scared. I didnt entirely believe him, but something wrong me wanted to believe his every word. I knew my Jai, last night he was sick, he was drunk. He didnt know what he was doing. Maybe I believed him only because I knew that I had nowhere to go. I couldnt go back to my parents, because my ego wouldnt let me, nor could I let them know the torture and humiliation I had been subjected to, because I wasnt utilise to being proved wrong. I didnt want them to know that they had been right.So I stayed, I believed what I wanted to believe about him, he was my strength, everything else was perfect, and these were just trivial things that happened sometimes between couples, meant to be forgotte n, it was the price I had to pay for my love, my impudence and what the world would see as my victory. After that incident, things were back to design between us on the outside, but deep down I was scared, I was scared of making any wrong move. I was still not thoroughly convinced that he believed that the child I was carrying was his, because he did pass snide remarks implying that I was unfaithful to him.For a long time after that I avoided him when he was drunk, I let fear discover my pride, and soon I let my ego dissolve in motion of him. He was my husband, my master, my provider, my everything. It was the price I paid for my image in society. bulk admired me for being able to live with a man know by his notoriety. They thought that I had reformed him, but that was only in public. At home I slowly began to uncover his darkest secrets. After I gave birth to my bollocks, Rahul, I stayed at my parents house as per the customs of our society. cardinal night I had to come back t o my house to get a few tablets that I left in that respect before. My start offered to drive me in that location at around 1 in the morning. As I entered the house I heard voices from my bedroom, I decided to go take a look, thinking that maybe Jai had a few of his friends over, and as I walked in, I power saw him in bed with another woman. I wasnt as shocked as I ought to have been perhaps because deep down inside I knew this was going on, I just hadnt expected to catch him in the act so soon. As soon as he was aware of my presence he ordered the other woman to leave.I grabbed this luck to have the upper hand. He was the unfaithful one, not me. I started reprimanding him and he kept quiet. I thought that I was winning, he was ashamed, and had been caught in the act. But I made one little mistake. In my rage, I mistreat him. A clenched jaw and red, bulging eyes looked up at me. He rose and struck me on my face. I knew that my father was waiting outside for me, and under no ci rcumstances would I let my father know, ever. So I ran out to my father, knowing the fate that awaited me the next day. The day I went back home with my minor was awful.He was drunk when I arrived, and he waited for my parents to leave before he used the events of the other night as a stick to beat me with. Thus the beatings started. both other night at first, and then everyday for trivial things, like not serving him breakfast on time, not ironing his raiment well, and coming home late, even if I was at my parents house. I began to feel like I could trust no one. I lived a schizophrenic existence. The humiliation of not being able to keep my husband happy and falling short of my parents definition of an ideal marriage seemed more fright than the beatings.I tried everything I could to keep him in a convenient mood. I eliminated everything that would slightly upset him. I tried to mould my personality to fit him, so that we could live in harmony. Along with my pride there was s omething else, much more precious to me at stake, my baby Rahul. Even if he never showed much affection towards the baby, Jai had never raised his hand on him, and I tried my best to keep it that way. But it was inevitable. I knew that Jai had a suspicion that the baby wasnt his.One morning as I woke up to Rahuls cries, Jai was getting dressed for work, and he had not attended to the baby, but I could see that the babys wails were increasingly annoying him. I knew that if I didnt do something to stop Rahul from crying, he too would be subjected to his fathers evil. Jai probably saw my fear for my baby in my eyes, and decided to taunt me with it. He commanded me to leave Rahul alone, and ordered the baby to shut up. At this point, I knew that I had to try and save my some precious asset, and I ignored his command and reached out for my child. Jai caught my hair and dragged me away from him.I was powerless to resist. I could only pray to the Lord. Rahuls wails got louder when he saw the brutality of the scene. Jai left my hair and reached for the babys neck, almost chocking him to death, his eyes bulged with fear and I knew that he would soon turn blue. An eternity passed before me, until I was suddenly overcome by strength so great, I can now say that it was the strength of the Lord. The strength he had given me, to save my baby. I spotted my heavy rot iron lamp on my bedside I lifted it with all my strength and brought it crashing down at the back of his head. He send packing on the floor with a thud.